Inspiration and Rambles

I have been reading “Nothing to Prove” by Jennie Allen and it has spoken directly to that ache of “not-enoughness” that I have felt for way too long.    I think that we all feel this way to some degree, but women are especially prone to it. Past the constant pressures that society put on us, we also get it from our family, friends and co-workers.    In the internet obsessed world we live in, our lives are so busy and jam packed that we crave time to do “nothing”. We justify looking at our phone to “relax” for 5...

  C H A N G E. . January has been a difficult month to say the least. (Even though it flew by! ) . I appreciate when people are honest and genuine and I believe that mental health needs to be discussed more. . I have been dealing with depression for most of my life. This past month, it has probably been the worst it has ever been. I have been on a roller coaster of emotions and in some pretty dark places. . I am not magically better but I am somehow in a place were a small...

Today is the day! It is out! I can finally announce that one of my prints is in a magazine!!! (insert cheek aching giddy grin here) I am over the moon about this opportunity, especially since I still feel like I have no idea what I am doing. (cause it's true) I am finally going after my dream of creating art and owning my own business.    I find myself at a lose for words because I still can't believe it. This has been a long time coming and it excites me and scares me to death at the same time!...

This past week I started a new women's Bible study at my church. It is called Unashamed by Christine Caine.   The study talks about how everyone feels shame, but especially women. We feel shame from things we have done in our past, bad choices we have made, things other people have done to us. And we allow those things and circumstances to define who we are. We label ourselves "unworthy", "unlovable", or "not enough".    We fail to remember how God see us.   That we are loved. We are His child. Even though we are flawed and sinful,...

Recently, I was reminded of some issues and insecurities that I have struggled with for years. It is not like I just discovered them for the first time, but they became much more noticeable and moved to the front of my brain. I learned somewhere along the line in my life that I never felt good enough. I took criticism to personally and felt that anytime something was pointed out about me, it was "wrong". Equaling that I was never enough. Never what someone else wanted me to beNever completed a task the way something else thought I shouldNever measured up to...